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Monday, October 24, 2016
Looking above
Friday, May 13, 2016
Cheers to the weekend and Good energy!
Wednesday, May 4, 2016
Gratefulness
Tuesday, May 3, 2016
Cycle of life
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I opened the fridge to keep some freshly bought mangoes and I spotted a can of coke!.
Not that its anything but a can of coke survived my fridge that too over a weekend and the highlight is I purchased it last week!
So that for me is a biggie! no Sodas have stayed in my fridge for more than 48 hours.
I have this full length mirror in my room and has been there for a while now, just last week for no apparent reason I stood in front of it after a shower, the bathroom light cast a shadow over the dark room (the curtains were given for wash) so I avoided turning on any lights in the bedroom to avoid any peeking Tom's (if there was)from the next building.
I stood there half in the light and half the dark and saw myself all wrapped up pretty in a towel, applying moisturizer to my hands and feet (you get the drill)
As I was reaching out for my clothes laid out on the bed, I saw this part of me, a side of me that i never saw in the light. CELLULITES! over the nook and corners of my body, I looked like a 80yr old (BTW I am 32). it scared me, how come I never gave a thought to this before. It seemed i recognised myself more in the dark than in the light. Now I am not big on exercise kind of person, but i am regular walker and not so very much into other fitness. Yes, I like my coffee and Tea's in sugar and full fat milk and the biscuits that go along with it. But C'mon! really!
Actually that night my body's image scared me so much, that I stopped- YES I stopped the consumption of Tea and coffee and all that gives me pleasure, the very next day.
You would wonder why tea and coffee first of all- because more than food that is the culprit where I happily drown spoonful of sugar and flow of fresh full fat milk in it.So that's the first thing I needed to stop.
How's it going till now not waking up to my cup of coffee? Frankly i do feel the pains and urges but its nothing compared to what I saw that scarred me of my image.
It's been a week now and these days i have been drinking green juices (barf) and getting used to it now very soon I am looking into these overnight porridges thingy. I am getting there. slowly and steady I am getting there.
So the next time my curtains go for wash, I will be able to stand and look and myself without a shock!
Not that its anything but a can of coke survived my fridge that too over a weekend and the highlight is I purchased it last week!
So that for me is a biggie! no Sodas have stayed in my fridge for more than 48 hours.
I have this full length mirror in my room and has been there for a while now, just last week for no apparent reason I stood in front of it after a shower, the bathroom light cast a shadow over the dark room (the curtains were given for wash) so I avoided turning on any lights in the bedroom to avoid any peeking Tom's (if there was)from the next building.
I stood there half in the light and half the dark and saw myself all wrapped up pretty in a towel, applying moisturizer to my hands and feet (you get the drill)
As I was reaching out for my clothes laid out on the bed, I saw this part of me, a side of me that i never saw in the light. CELLULITES! over the nook and corners of my body, I looked like a 80yr old (BTW I am 32). it scared me, how come I never gave a thought to this before. It seemed i recognised myself more in the dark than in the light. Now I am not big on exercise kind of person, but i am regular walker and not so very much into other fitness. Yes, I like my coffee and Tea's in sugar and full fat milk and the biscuits that go along with it. But C'mon! really!
Actually that night my body's image scared me so much, that I stopped- YES I stopped the consumption of Tea and coffee and all that gives me pleasure, the very next day.
You would wonder why tea and coffee first of all- because more than food that is the culprit where I happily drown spoonful of sugar and flow of fresh full fat milk in it.So that's the first thing I needed to stop.
How's it going till now not waking up to my cup of coffee? Frankly i do feel the pains and urges but its nothing compared to what I saw that scarred me of my image.
It's been a week now and these days i have been drinking green juices (barf) and getting used to it now very soon I am looking into these overnight porridges thingy. I am getting there. slowly and steady I am getting there.
So the next time my curtains go for wash, I will be able to stand and look and myself without a shock!
Thursday, April 28, 2016
Eye twitches and Superstitons
No person i have met has been spared from tales of superstition. Even friends from the most progressive modern country also have their tales of granny said superstition.
It's been a few days since under my right eye has been twitching, I looked up the faithful Google what are the causes of it, it gave a number of symptoms to choose from which very much matched mine sleeplessness and stress. oh! perfect. Solved.
It did also give me the dark side to the effects causes and symptoms of eye twitching. hmm! it couldn't be that bad. I mean i know i have been struggling to sleep since a few days and its very common for me, since I have been struggling to sleep for a few years now actually. A few days is quite an understatement.
I took an "eye" pack from the fridge and kept it on my eye just to cool it down. The Eyes that used to be known as the window to the soul has been working overtime since the boom of technology and hasn't stopped since. It's been over worked and over tired and over used..Nowadays the eyes are known for the window to virtual knowledge.
In the middle of it all a weird thought passed my mind. If i had my crazy family with me they wouldn't be bothered with this medical term and all, they would be telling me "its a good sign" or "some good news is coming" or "a windfall of luck" especially the right eye means "more favor".
Can I tell you from the last 30 years any weird twitching or itching or hair falling or walking or talking none of these has ever come to pass. Where do these ideas come from? even asking the oldest member of my household left her clueless too.
I went back online to put eye twitching superstitions and voila! it was there, who needed my crazy family members to remind me when the internet is there?
It's been a few days since under my right eye has been twitching, I looked up the faithful Google what are the causes of it, it gave a number of symptoms to choose from which very much matched mine sleeplessness and stress. oh! perfect. Solved.
It did also give me the dark side to the effects causes and symptoms of eye twitching. hmm! it couldn't be that bad. I mean i know i have been struggling to sleep since a few days and its very common for me, since I have been struggling to sleep for a few years now actually. A few days is quite an understatement.
I took an "eye" pack from the fridge and kept it on my eye just to cool it down. The Eyes that used to be known as the window to the soul has been working overtime since the boom of technology and hasn't stopped since. It's been over worked and over tired and over used..Nowadays the eyes are known for the window to virtual knowledge.
In the middle of it all a weird thought passed my mind. If i had my crazy family with me they wouldn't be bothered with this medical term and all, they would be telling me "its a good sign" or "some good news is coming" or "a windfall of luck" especially the right eye means "more favor".
Can I tell you from the last 30 years any weird twitching or itching or hair falling or walking or talking none of these has ever come to pass. Where do these ideas come from? even asking the oldest member of my household left her clueless too.
I went back online to put eye twitching superstitions and voila! it was there, who needed my crazy family members to remind me when the internet is there?
Wednesday, April 27, 2016
ME.
There is confusion inside me on whats happening outside me. its like a tricky play that the audience is kept guessing until the end, many get it halfway and some don't. that "some" person would be me. no matter all these years i have lived ups and downs, i thought i know it all, but there is something thats even more quizzical that comes along.
i have always concluded and spoken to people that my life is a drama. no matter how much i am away from it, its still there, catching up at every turn and meeting me with anticipation.
i even joked once and many times its better i go and give my story to some good producers atlas there will a motion series made for me to sit and look back at my own life. just played by someone else. i think its going to be hilarious, i mean after repeatedly inviting myself to unneeded situations, i still don't learn.
why are we surrounded by friends that have got everything going for them so beautifully? and yet our life so different 'alienated'?
questions are too many to even ask, cause it all leads up to the same thing over and over- why me? or why not me? either way i keep making a fool of myself. questioning and unquestioning me over and over again.
i have begun to doubt my sanity. all these years no matter what kinda shit i have been through, i never doubted myself even for a second. but recently its like my existence? what is that? is it even legal for me to think like that or exist for that matter? seriously?
everyday its like a juggle and struggle - that must say it.
many days half written stories are left uncompleted on the paper, the book is closed and i don't look at it again. and when i do i tear the page and toss it
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