Friday, December 5, 2014

Is it over already?!!

It's 5th December today.. Really!? Damn! Where has the days gone, the months? 4 more months to be another year older.
I can't believe I have started to hear people say I'll see u next year instead of saying I'll see you in a month. 
No way! Frazzled honestly. 
But looking at the bright side look how many of us are entering into another new year while many didn't make it. 
Did I do anything different? Did I make memories? Did I brighten someone along the way? Did I learn anything? Am I different person? 
A humble YES! I tried, I failed, I learned, i succeeded and am still on the way.
The road that is not paved is not an easy one, just when u think you have seen and experienced it all. There is another coming along the way! 
But hey! Who's complaining? 
I am living and I am experiencing.

Have a good journey all along xoxo


Thursday, November 6, 2014

What does it take?

what does it take? to fly so high
what does it take to feel safe with someone
to be assured that all is ok.
someone to come home to
waiting body of a warm soul

what does it take for someone to love me
love me without limitations
someone to hold me when I have my bad days
for someone to just be beside me

with whom I can run to when the world is chasing me
yes I have a heart 
a heart that beats
and a heart that breaks
and a heart that breaths too


 

Thursday, August 28, 2014

Dream

today i dreamt about you
a beautiful dream
that just happened
a dream where we both played
played like no ill between us
played like we crossed the boundaries
meeting after long
the way we touched
our skin drenced into eachothers
like the rain filling the dry ground
it felt good
it felt good to have you
not in real
but atleast in my dream
u were much closer
like i breathe
your smile
oh! so beautiful
your eyes
i cant yet find words for it
it was beautiful
the way we laughed out hearts out
it was beautiful the way we were
something thats very rare

xoxo

Thursday, August 14, 2014

Forget- me not


Nostos- algos

“I'd trade all my tomorrows for one single yesterday.” 
― Kris Kristofferson

we are so busy making a life that we forget about moments.

what would I not do- to re-live  a moment in time for that familiar aroma in the air of coming to home cooked food at my grandma's, the smell of roasted spices wafting through the house,
throwing those heavy bags from school, those homework pressures, the arguments, the teachers warning all that left at the door, into her warm embrace just had to do it.

those friends oh good god! Always in the midst of trouble." Mischief" was the middle name of me and my 2 accomplices and to those who would dare to join in and take the blame was "warning.. the minute the bell rings for another period, the class monitor would march to the black board and chalk out our names with an "evil grin" on her face
Everything from misplacing stuff needed for that class to bunking to White lying our way through the class period. 
"Outstanding" was not really in our report cards but we actually gave true meaning to that word.
those assembly times all of us trying to form a line nearer to the one tree we had in our school ground so we could shade ourselves from the sun.
The songs we used to listen that gave me a rush, the first crush, the yearning to grow up, those evening chai and baban's vada pav, 

Looking over the balcony into the horizon dwelling on those long gone moments, becoming moist eyed brings me the greatest comfort - warms the soul.
 
If someone told me to stop growing fast and just live for those moments cause they would never ever come back.. 
I would and I would not be afraid to make a few more crazy ones.

From this moment on.....

Friday, July 18, 2014

Ugly

there it goes again
the ugly monsters of negativity pride ego insecurity showing their ugly head again in all these things
dont know how to behave normal
i am stupidly insane for what i did and what i want
honestly i dont even care what others think about
but y should i ?
why should i ?
really whats this think about being soooo busy that u dont have time to meet
really
whats this ?
is this how it is..
after endless battle thoughts with myself of giving up
i want to give up
i have to give up
i am myself no more
thats ok
BE KIND TO YOURSELF
you are good
you also are trying
not everything is your fault
switching ur mobile off will not change anything
and neither changing it will
so let go and keep going
 
 
dwell but not for too long
its ok
forgive yourself
dont be hard on urself
after all
look at the journey u have made till now
 
i am sorry my love
i am sorry for imposing
you know it happens
when someone waits
for no one
 
 
remember running away
nope
i am not this time.
i am not
 

 

Over again.

Another day another relationship is over
No I did not keep my hopes high
But yes I did place a hope on this one
Knowing to take it slow 
Knowing to to keep it
Forever 
Maybe 
Or for the long run
Again maybe
It's not happened 
Cause I screwed up 
I messed up for speaking my mind
I am actually thinking 
Wait a minute here! 
I am not one of those annoying cry baby girls
I do my head on my shoulders 
Then 
What's lacking?
Maybe I am not that
Maybe I am not this 
What is it?
Questions 
Sorry
Apologies for speaking my mind in a subtle way 
Well I am packing my temporary things which I unpacked to leave 
The story goes on and in again
I can only say that ok" no more
Nothing more
Maybe I truly don't know the meaning of life or people
Maybe I truly don't