New Hope

This ground i stand
hard earth underneath my feet
I've walked this way before
time and time through
toiled at the days heat
everyday my hope hung to my faith lifted high
i knew i could give up, but then it was a risk worth a try
Yes, I've failed and broken
trampled and crushed
I couldn't be more shaken
Until I gave up my last sign of hope

Just then the light broke- into another day
A new breath i took to stay
My spirits grew and my faith renewed
The wars lost and the dreams that I forgot
came all true
in boxes wrapped in gold and blue
I shone like never before
the brightest and the star-iest
Could i have asked for more?

Alone with my thoughts

Sitting at cafe with a fresh pot of coffee and waiting for my cheesy pasta to arrive,

minding my own business and looking around cause the cricket match on the TV dosen't impress me so.

A casual look at the couples sitting and shyly smiling, ladies gossiping and laughs from nearby group of youngsters

All in their own little world of fun, frolic and a dark side that is diminished by their meeting. how else they sit cosily with each other?

the couples look so deeply into each others eyes, like making promises in the unknown future they may share, she blushes at his wink.

new love? 

The gossip about the brother's children and the school month distracted me, damn those ladies knew how to talk aloud. its a public place!

there was a time when people would huddle in groups and talk in whispers and now there is a time where a single person can be heard.

i didn't want to know about your childs lunchbox or how you tolerate your family visit. no i didn't want to know that.

As the baller hits another ball, there are cheers in the cafe as everybody knew the winning team.

Everyone owns their team in their hearts, in their minds in their wins and in their losses.

That's why there's celebration followed by tears.

I can see the waiter come from the kitchen door having a plate of pasta and a block of cheese on his tray, knowing its mine.

The joy in your heart, you know what I'm talking about

A man enters the door and walks over to the couples table that were so lost into each other, my favourite people in the cafe. walks over to the girl and plants a kiss on her lips and walks her out in to the street leaving the guy sitting alone. 

He knew. Alone once again looking out the window.

The waiter left my table. 

And i just sat there all alone.

Monday's!!

Why is expecting a Monday so hard?

Why is it so dreaded? 

I mean seriously!

A lot of things does/ can or will happen on a Monday if you stop making it such a big deal

You made it to the new week and many didn't, out of choice or not. 

A coffee or downing shots wont cure that sigh- ing about Monday's 

It will come every week 

Like it always has and been and will be 

So salut!

The Paris tragedy

The change of DP's in support

Most of them not even aware of the meaning

And those that are, suffer unimaginably in the name of religion 

The world suffers 

But no one even nods

A Certain country does

And the whole world mourns

Are we become so selfish 

To mourn according to religion 

Because we feel some deserve it

And many don't?

Is this what our generation is about? 

What do we teach our kids? 

The importance to change DP's by the color of flags or to teach them that a good human or a bad one doesn't require a religion?

Don't judge, don't shame, don't burn people in religion's name

The world is ending anyway

So what more are we keeping an account of?

we have just been waiting and waiting most of my life
waiting to grow up
waiting to start school
waiting for terms to end
waiting for friends
waiting at restaurants
waiting in line
waiting for good things
waiting to finish school
waiting to have a boyfriend
waiting to get a job
waiting to be healed
waiting to get married
and now that I am married
I have been waiting for my husband to get home each night
and am still waiting

Maybe I should've

Sometimes it's really important to shut your mouth even where it's necessary or not.. Cause it does save a lot trauma said and heard, lots of grudges and ill feelings and thoughts. It just creates and unnecessary vicious cycle of I should've or could've. And you know what it's really really not important. We are all out there to justify ourselves and prove our worth. Sometimes silence does that too. Try your best but If you do get stuck in similar situations- just let go, yes- just let go. Of course it's not easy, i mean how could it be? Right? In a year's or less than that time you will be happy and at peace. Maybe and hopefully not regretting anything that should've or could've said.

Thoughts