all of my life, i have been waiting for someone

someone to hold me tight

on those rainy nights,

i have waited and no one came,

now  i have decided to leave the game

 

cause it aint no worth

and it aint no fame

i am tired and i feel disgusted

cause i was out there alone

bearing all the shame

 

just then u walked in to my life..

when there was nothing left

and no one left to blame

 

i was empty

i was drenched

i was hollow

that anyone could tell

 

i held on

i held on to what i had left..

cause in me a heart was there

beating at its best.

 

u put a glow

and there shone my face

inspite of all this.

u pictured me perfect.

 

i couldn't have asked for more

but i could have asked for less

but my father up there

couldnt have had me more blest!!

Distance

Abuse of innocence.

Why do humans abuse animals?

What have they done to us other than protecting and defending themselves?

They have a life too

Not given by us

But by the one above.

Why such an outcry amongst the animal trade?

Why are they forced for entertainment purposes? 

This world is theirs too infact more than ours

So many animal lovers

And yet more abusers

Don't these people have any - feelings at all!

How do u treat your partners?

Dragging them by the ears or hang your babies in a clothesline or tie to them  your vehicle and pull them by the rope? 

DO YOU!?!

Could you sleep at night doing all these? 

Is there an answer ?

NO! Because 

All these animals they can do is just whine, yelp, growl and turn away.

Dust.

There is a whirlwind inside of me.

I am trying best, iI am trying out of my way.

a suction so deep

 

honesty- a word become so NON- EXISTENT in my life. no more i believe it, myself

I have lost ME somewhere..

I think its better to not feel anymore, feelings hurt, 

when u feel for someone, it becomes real, all those fairy tales you hear from childhood, starts to take shape in an amazing pattern,

not a knight in shining armour riding on a horse or a girl in a full blown pretty dress.

its just it- no words can compare.

 

my dreams have died inside, the truth has died. i used to dream fearlessly, but now, m scarred..

nothing happened on the journey, but everything tumbled down, just came down like a pack of cards.

why I couldn't dream again? i can- but i chose not to, i don't want to.

I have faltered, just when i thought i stood up on a rock, it also started to crumble- questioning me all the way about my dignity, about my honesty, about me!

 

years of questioning has left me desolate, nowhere to run, even i have left myself.

the impossible looks all the more impossible.

 

I have always settled for the second best, i thought i can make it, but i guess, its not something you read in books for the truth, its something that unfolds..by itself

 

your photo on the wall, doesn't speak to me anymore, maybe I haven't looked at it enough. maybe u left me, when i was with you, while looking in your eyes.

 

you are far away when u r with me, i am alone even with you next to me.

How much do we hesitate

How much do we fear

How much do we hold on

To others existence and fear

Dear God,

Dear father god

Help me remember who I am, keep me grounded in you and in my self.

Keep me humble and make any decision and assumption In life based on my childish thoughts and immaturity.

Let me see the joys in life

And also the not so joy things in life

So that I may learn

And see

What you have presented to me

Help me know that every creation is different from the other

With breath or without breath

No two things or

No two people are the same

When I am sad or when I am depressed

Keep me calm and grounded in ur hand

Let me know that I am going to rise up

From the norm

That I am flying on the wings of an eagle

I am who I am meant to be

The journey long

Cold and tired

I would give up

If it wasn't for u