Maybe I should've

Sometimes it's really important to shut your mouth even where it's necessary or not.. Cause it does save a lot trauma said and heard, lots of grudges and ill feelings and thoughts. It just creates and unnecessary vicious cycle of I should've or could've. And you know what it's really really not important. We are all out there to justify ourselves and prove our worth. Sometimes silence does that too. Try your best but If you do get stuck in similar situations- just let go, yes- just let go. Of course it's not easy, i mean how could it be? Right? In a year's or less than that time you will be happy and at peace. Maybe and hopefully not regretting anything that should've or could've said.

Thoughts

Remain forever

Times change, people change, feelings change

It leaves only memories I wouldn't know when and u wouldn't know what is the right time and the right decision.

But I have known life goes on

Sometimes it's so painfully etched in your heart that all you can do is nothing- nothing no nothing at all- I can do

Is it over ?

Why do I find you everywhere?

Is it mutual or is it just a sham?

All that little fears about us about u- never existed.

I've loved you like a child a child of my own

I hope u write about me in the air with your fingers like u always did - but with love and beauty.

Maybe our pride and egos do find a way 

We are already oceans apart, miles and miles away. 

But you are still here.

Nanuji.

Pause

It's ok

It's still me

Pause- take a deep breath

As long as u can- inhale

As hard as u can- exhale

Every bit that's bothering, tormenting and nagging you

Open your eyes and see around

Hear the nature 

Listen- 

It's still there

Waiting to be experienced 

Waiting to be acknowledged

And waiting for you to come and loose yourself in their presence.

Live xoxo

Breaking free

Have you ever had to make a decesion alone because you never wanted to share it with anybody or needed their opinion or because you didn't want to hear what they said about your dream. 

Not another excuse? 

Has it been easy or something you always wanted to do?

That sense of freedom, 

that taste of individuality, 

that responsibility, 

that fear, 

that moment.

Scary isn't it!?

But yet so confident.

And you know it's yours for the taking. 

That fleeting moment,

That skipped heartbeat

That nervous smile

That determined mind

 

Which makes the "YOU" unshakeable against them.

Keep dreaming xoxo

Is it over already?!!

It's 5th December today.. Really!? Damn! Where has the days gone, the months? 4 more months to be another year older.

I can't believe I have started to hear people say I'll see u next year instead of saying I'll see you in a month. 

No way! Frazzled honestly. 

But looking at the bright side look how many of us are entering into another new year while many didn't make it. 

Did I do anything different? Did I make memories? Did I brighten someone along the way? Did I learn anything? Am I different person? 

A humble YES! I tried, I failed, I learned, i succeeded and am still on the way.

The road that is not paved is not an easy one, just when u think you have seen and experienced it all. There is another coming along the way! 

But hey! Who's complaining? 

I am living and I am experiencing.

Have a good journey all along xoxo

What does it take?

what does it take? to fly so high
what does it take to feel safe with someone
to be assured that all is ok.
someone to come home to
waiting body of a warm soul

what does it take for someone to love me
love me without limitations
someone to hold me when I have my bad days
for someone to just be beside me

with whom I can run to when the world is chasing me
yes I have a heart 
a heart that beats
and a heart that breaks
and a heart that breaths too