?....

Isn't this life equal to dying, when u r so powerless, when u can't fight for anything u want, when everybody's has fought for their life and are happy, when u stand here waiting for fighting for approval, trying to make ur stand, trying to gain what u have lost,, losing Urself.. It's good to be dead right!?

Maybe this is the meaning of life. All my life I was wondering what life is? And today I understood.

I am really powerless and I am really weak I have lost and i am losing more. I wish everything made sense, but no I don't even want to think more about sense.

It's for the intelligent who have fought a battle and have triumphed. What have I gained? But yes I have lost.. A lot..

 

 

Maybe I have not seen the worst, maybe that's what I am here for. To just be humiliated more.

I tried, I tried, I tried and yes I tried

And here I am writing this to no one.

I can't see anything, I can't make sense of anything, it's so crowded and noisy around me, yet I can't hear and can't feel. It's blank all is quiet within me.

i live inside this world. Where I can see nothing but destruction.. Destruction of mind of thought of love of myself, nothing exists there nothing..

Just a flood of tears and hate of myself

Questioning my existence.

Isn't it better to die?

Then all will be well

All will be quite.